First of all, well done for opening up to someone. Even though you are anon, thank you. The hardest part is over. I can imagine, after getting all that out you are feeling upset. I’m guessing you might’ve even cried. This is GOOD. I can’t stress how GOOD it is to cry. Imagine your emotions, every single one of them. All your hatred, hurt, pain, anger, confusion all of that bad stuff just imagine it is all water inside you. Dirty water. And everytime you cry, you are letting out more and more of that water and replacing it with clean water. Basically what I’m trying to say is, don’t feel bad for getting upset, if you need to cry, cry because it’s one more ocean you don’t have to deal with. I didn’t tell a soul about my suicide attempts either. This is so so dangerous. You NEED to tell someone. Preferably someone you live with. Your parents or a sibling. You don’t even have to say it out loud, write them a letter, text them anything. But somehow, get that message to them. They will understand and they will be there for you. I know exactly how you feel and someone telling you you’re worth a HELL of a lot more than you feel won’t make the feeling go away. But let me tell you now there is light at the end of it. Just stay strong and you will get better in time. I am always here to talk if you need it.  Once again, thank you for opening up. It’s the first and hardest step and you are strong for doing so. ♥